Monday 31 January 2011

Beggining studies with the OU

Ok, not the most imaginative title I know, but it does what it says on the tin as you might say. Its the first formal education I've attempted in 11 years unless you count the casual maths and English lessons my Mum has given me most week days since I was well enough. I've also been on some adult learning workshops run by Suffolk Wildlife Trusts. It was mostly due to these that prompted me to decide to try a OU course and which one.

The course I've chosen to start with is a short science one called 'Neighbourhood nature'. It is all about learning to identify and record the wildlife in your local area. I mainly chose it because it won't be all computer work. Also I enjoy watching nature such as the birds and butterflies in our back garden and visiting nature reserves but have never tried recording what I see before so thought it'd be useful to learn how to. Its run in partnership with OPAL and iSpot. I'm already a member of iSpot but have only submitted one record before so hopefully this course will force me to be a bit more dedicated.

Its meant to be very disabled friendly university as it is nearly all done from home so no travelling, having to negotiate awkward buildings and you can fit your learning around your own time. It asks on the registration form if you have a disability and if you ring 'yes' they automoatically send you a copy of their 'Meeting your needs' brochure detailing all their services for disabled people

Unfortunately even though I definitely said yes, some error occurred whilst it was being processed and they managed not to register this important detail. This meant my Mum had to phone up our local branch to correct them and ask for a copy of the brochure. Still it was very interesting when it did come. I'm now awaiting a comb-backed copy of my study book which hopefully will be easier to use lying down    

Monday 24 January 2011

The LDN database

'Until there’s a cure, there’s LDN'

This is a quote from the LDN database.com website which I think is very fitting. I was recently directed to this online database by a helpful foggy friender called Luna. I am thinking of writing a letter to my MP lobbying for a clinical trial of LDN (though it'd be helpful if they developed a proper diagnosis for ME first). When I posted this on Foggy Friends Luna asked my why don't I join the group pushing for a clinical trial and to remember to fill in the form there stating how I felt LDN had helped me. 

The Graph for ME/CFS sufferers is very encouraging. Of the 22 people who have submitted info 16 found it helpful, 4 not sure and 2 nothing. You can view the graph here;


I've also joined the LDN yahoo group. Most of the other members have MS rather than ME but they sent me loads of Word documents stuffed with info on LDN. I'll include bits of the information on my blog as I read it 

If you are an ME sufferer on LDN follow this link to fill the form;  http://www.ldndatabase.com/questions.html

Foggy Friends have a chat room as well as forums. I've only just started to use the chat room, occasionally in the evenings, its nice to talk to some different people in 'real' time for a change. Foggy friends seems to be a very democratic ME website and there is a good mix of people  

Sunday 23 January 2011

Amy

Amy Smith is a nineteen year old girl whose passions in life are Irish coffee, reading and shoes (because as she says you can more easily find perfectly fitting shoes than clothes. Although alas that statement doesn't apply to me). She also happens to have been my best friend since I was two months old (she is two months younger).

She came to visit every Friday throughout every stage of my illness; during the years when I was in the dark, mute, underweight and unable to wash properly; the period when I was tube-fed and my Dad carried me downstairs every morning to my special 'day' room downstairs next to the guinea pigs; when I started to talk again; to recover enough to sit up and chat with her; eventually progressing to getting out of my room into the dining room. We would chat for about an hour and Mum would have made some home-made snack.
In September she went off to University in Reading so those times are now mostly a thing of the past except occasionally during the holidays. I do genuinely miss her. She was one of my few contacts with the outside world. Its so easy when your on your own-i-o all the time to get wrapped up in your own daft thoughts, to lose your grip on reality and let your problems grow untill they overpower you. Seeing someone else, even if you don't confide in them, puts your life into perspective. On your own its easy to lose that.

Amy is a proper friend as well; someone who knows you really well and will always remain a friend despite anything, whatever happens, if your naughty, you disagree on something or are terribly depressed. I mean I do have other people in my life, I have people I can text whom I've met on forums and a few other old schoolfriends. But they don't know me half as well and frequently I either feel I'm putting on an act or when I say what I really think they take it the wrong way and get offended. Espeically with my ME friends because I feel the problems I've encountered during my ME are generally ones my 'fellow' sufferers don't like to confront, also I've had a pretty severe, classic type that they don't all understand. Often lately I've felt are friendships are rather one-sided, they tell me their problems but I'm unable to tell them mine. I'm sorry if I'm sounding rather unkind

Amy went through my ME with me and understands better than anyone (apart from my parents) what I've been through.

Thursday 20 January 2011

Mary Bradley books; researching LDN furthur

up the creek with a paddle I've just finished reading this book about LDN. My Dad got it for me for Christmas. Its written by a woman called Mary Boyle Bradley whose husband suffers from Primary Progressive MS and has been on LDN for about nine year. This has happily stopped his MS from progressing. Her Uncle, Mum, herself and various friends also have been on it for conditions as wide ranging as cancer and Samters.

It was a good read from the perspective of learning about someone elses experiences of it and I learnt some interesting new facts about LDN.

She is a very uncritical woman which is both a blessing for the book and a slight negative. She isn't very zealous in her critisim of the MS charities and governments who don't champion LDN because they're in cahoots with the pharmaceutical companies. (I have to confess it was pleasant to discover ME charities aren't the only ones who let down their members because of their involvment with government agencies and pharmaceutical companies.) She believes the reason they aren't interested in peoples experiences or the Irish government with funding a large scale clinical trial of LDN because they think it sounds too good to be true.

Basically Naltrexone is an out of patent drug that was once used, at a higher dose of 50mg, to treat drug addicts and achololics. In 1986 a New York doctor, Dr Bernard Bihari, discovered that some of his drug abuse patients who were suffering from a mysterious disease later discovered to be AIDS benefited from a lower dose of this drug (4.5mg.

Breif quote from the low dose naltrexone.org website on how its supposed to work;

' A body of research over the past two decades has pointed repeatedly to one's own endorphin secretions (our internal opioids) as playing the central role in the beneficial orchestration of the immune system.  Preclinical evidence indicates overwhelmingly that opioids alter the development, differentiation, and function of immune cells, and that both innate and adaptive systems are affected. The brief blockade of opioid receptors between 2 a.m. and 4 a.m. that is caused by taking LDN at bedtime each night is believed to produce a prolonged up-regulation of vital elements of the immune system by causing an increase in endorphin and enkephalin production.'

However there have been few studies into LDN because drug trials are mainly initiated by large pharmaceutical companies who have to, in the interests of their businesses, keep the likely financial rewards in mind. As Naltrexone is a cheap drug that already has a patent the financial rewards would be few.

Mary Bradley attemped to lobby both the Irish (her home country) government and the South African government because MS, AIDS, etc and their treatment put a bigger pressure on those countries economys than they do on the Americans due to the NHS and the AIDS epidemics. However so far both governments have failed to act (probably because they are reliant on the drug companies).

I'm not sure exactly how LDN benefits ME sufferers as so little is known about ME at all, never mind the effects of drugs on it.

Onw disappointing point of the book is that the only CFS sufferer who took it(it didn't say ME) wasn't particularly improved by it and quickly gave up on it when she became pregnant. However her chronic fatigue was probably the result of her Samters, rather than classic ME. If we are to make any progress in the treatment of ME we desperately need a proper diagnosis for it. The problem with doing any research into it is that its diagnostic criteria is mostly phony so almost anyone suffering with anything could be thrown in. If someones fatigue was caused by say, a phyciatric problem, then LDN might not really help them. I've been asking on FF how many people would be interested in a clinical trial of LDN. The answer so far, 11 yes, 1 no, 3 not bothered. 

Wednesday 19 January 2011

A broken spear

Since Dr Wights disappearance from the scene we've struggled to find another source to supply us with LDN.

Dr Wight did give us the web address of some online docters who could supply us but they won't do so without your usual Dr signing a form basically stating you have a genuine medical condition and would benefit. Sadly my Mum went round to my GP with this form but she never got back to us saying she'd signed it. Fortunately they accepted a letter from my OT, which she'd written at the end of last Summer just when I was starting LDN stating I had ME and had been started on LDN by my Dr W. This was a relief.

Another place we tried was a consultant at Breakspear hospital, Dr Terry something (I can't remember his last name). Breakspear said they'd be happy to prescribe LDN for me but only if they were able to see me in the flesh first. They weren't happy to just have a telephone consultation, nor could they do a home visit as they're based in the north of England. It'd be difficult for me to travel there

We briefly discussed as a family asking their advice on what might benefit me and what specialists to go see. Apparently they cost an arm and a leg to pay to be a patiencent there though, someone on FF said they knew people who'd ended up selling their house to pay their expenses.

I hate England. All people do here is make a mountain out of what could be less than a molehill. As soon as I'm a proper adult and finished my degree ( and Barney and Jeremy/Herbert have safely passed away) I'm going to emigrate to Canada. They treat ME like any other illness there

One good piece of news to round things off. Dr Sarah Myhill has sucessfully appealed against her suspension and is now working again and taking on new clients. So if Dr Wight doesn't restart his clinic I could always go under her and she'd give me LDN!    

Sunday 16 January 2011

The Chrysalis


I've finally started to notice a real difference in my health which I think is due to the Low Dose Naltrexone (LDN). In case you've forgotten this is a drug Dr Wight prescribed in September. For a while I only noticed a few slight improvements in my well being, which could be have been due to any of my other treatments, not the Naltrexone at all. However since Christmas I've started to notice some real, huge changes which I think can only have been caused by the Naltrexone. I feel like a butterfly chrysalis that is just reforming and is about to break from its cocoon.

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The biggest difference is in my walking and standing. To be blunt I haven't been able to stand for 11 years or walk either, apart from a short period in 2009, when I was able to walk around the house but not like this. I'm much more stable and it doesn't leave my legs ache like it did before.

I'm now able to do 20-25 mins of yoga every day rather than 10 mins as before. Usually I do the stretches in the 'Before you start' section of my 'Yoga for common ailments' book and then some proper yoga postures from my 'Yoga for you' book. I've now restarted my chair yoga classes, after the Christmas break as well. I particularly emphasise the 'Cows Head' posture and the spinal stretches to try and correct (or at least manage) my scoliosis (crooked spine). I only do the prone and sitting asanas though as I still find holding standing postures difficult. I'm sure yoga has done divends to help my physical well being as, now I'm well enough to walk, disconditioning isn't stopping me from progressing

I have more stamina than I used to but still don't have as much energy as my peers. I spend about 3 to 3 and a half hours lying down, resting, but that could be due to my Mitochondria damage I suppose.

I finally feel like I'm well enough to do some formal study, also for the first time in 11 years, so I am feeling quite a lot better than I was all the same. I left school when I was eight so obviously failed to sit any GCSEs or A-levels. However I've decided to do some level one science courses with the OU which don't require any previous qualifications. The first one I'm doing starts in Feb and is called Neighbourhood Nature so I'm busy swotting up on my graphs and data analyse.

I've been reading up a bit more on LDN. According to the MSRC (Multiple Sclerosis Resource Centre) it works by 'the temporary inhibition of endorphins (a natural pain-killer, produced in the brain). This results in a reactive increase in the production of endorphins, which would expectedly result in a reduction in painful symptoms and an increase in the sense of wellbeing. In addition, increased levels of endorphins would also be expected to stimulate the immune system'. However under situations of stress or secondary virus/infection you can still experience flare ups of old symptoms, even relapses so maybe thats why it took a while for it to work for me? Due to the cold and dear Freddie? This info is all intended, of course, for MS sufferers

A few 'before LDN' pics like they have on 'Home and Garden' makeover programmes;

        
The above was taken a few years ago but still applied pretty well last Summer. I spent a lot of time lying down on the same bed with the same kind of expression.


Me at a weekend camp last Summer with my wheelchair.

And after LDN;!

Saturday 8 January 2011

A breif history of ME with case studies- (updated)

You may be wondering who and what I was referring to in my Dec post 'A series of unfortunate events; why I've been slightly depressed recently' when I mentioned the people who died of lack of care and abuse.

In order to help you understand I thought I'd first give you a basic history of ME;

ME is probably the most controversial and deliberately misunderstood illness in medical history. Myalgic Encephalomyelitis (ME) has been documented in the medical literature from 1934. It has been classified, by the World Health Organisation in the International Classification of diseases, as a organic, neurological condition since 1969. It shows very obvious, physical symptoms and signs of abnormal body functions under lab conditions

However it has been encouraged to be belittled and confused with Chronic Fatigue in the UK since 1988 (simply long term tiredness, probably psychiatric) by members of the Wesseley school. Simon Wesseley is obviously at the head of this school of thought. In case you haven't heard of him, he is Professor of Epidemiological and Liaison Psychiatry at Guy's, King's and St Thomas' School of Medicine, London and at The Institute of Psychiatry, where he is Director of both the CFS Research Unit and the Gulf War Illness Research Unit. He is well-known for his strongly-held beliefs that neither ME nor Gulf War Syndrome exists, and that such patients are mentally, not physically, ill. Seems a bit odd that he is heading  research into ilnesses he doesn't believe in. He is also an adviser to the government and medical insurance companies.

He believes that rather than a physical disease being at the heart of ME, the sufferers are merely self obsessed hyperchondriacs and any self respecting Dr would be disgusted with them. He encourages the government not to take ME as a serious disease on this basis.

This has led to a lot of stigma around the illness and very few services, treatments or biomedical research.

Here are a few case stories

Ean Procter;

In 1988, a formerly healthy 12 year old boy named Ean Proctor from the Isle of Man had been suffering from ME since the autumn of 1986; his symptoms included total exhaustion, feeling extremely ill, abdominal pain, persistent nausea, drenching sweats, headaches, recurrent sore throat, heightened sensitivity to noise and light and loss of balance; he was also dragging his right leg.  In 1987 his condition had rapidly deteriorated; he had gradually (not suddenly as may occur in hysterical disorders) lost his speech and was almost completely paralysed (which lasted for two years).  He had been seen by Dr Morgan-Hughes, a senior consultant neurologist at the National Hospital in London, who had reaffirmed the diagnosis of ME and advised the parents that ME patients usually respond poorly to exercise until their muscle strength begins to improve; he also advised that drugs could make the situation worse.
Although he did not obtain his MRCPsych until 1986, during one visit by the Proctors to the National Hospital in 1988, Wessely (then a Senior Registrar in Psychiatry) entered the room and asked Ean’s parents if he could become involved in his case; desperate for any help, they readily agreed.  Wessely soon informed them that children do not get ME, and unknown to them, on 3 June 1988 he wrote to the Principal Social Worker at Douglas, Isle of Man (Mrs Jean Manson) that “Ean presented with a history of an ability (sic) to use any muscle group which amounted to a paraplegia, together with elective mutatism (sic).  I did not perform a physical examination but was told that there was no evidence of any physical pathology…I was in no doubt that the primary problem was psychiatric (and) that his apparent illness was out of all proportion to the original cause.  I feel that Ean’s parents are very over involved in his care.  I have considerable experience in the subject of ‘myalgic encephalomyelitis’ and am absolutely certain that it did not apply to Ean.  I feel that Ean needs a long period of rehabilitation (which) will involve separation from his parents, providing an escape from his “ill” world.  For this reason, I support the application made by your department for wardship”.
On 10 June 1988 Wessely provided another report on Ean Proctor for Messrs Simcocks & Co, Solicitors for the Child Care Department on the Isle of Man. Although Wessely had never once interviewed or examined the child, he wrote “I did not order any investigations….Ean cannot be suffering from any primary organic illness, be it myalgic encephalomyelitis or any other. Ean has a primary psychological illness causing him to become mute and immobile.  Ean requires skilled rehabilitation to regain lost function.  I therefore support the efforts being made to ensure Ean receives appropriate treatment”.  Under his signature, Wessely wrote “Approved under Section 12, Mental Health Act 1983”.
In that same month (June 1988), without ever having spoken to his parents, social workers supported by psychiatrists and armed with a Court Order specially signed by a magistrate on a Sunday, removed the child under police presence from his distraught and disbelieving parents and placed him into “care” because psychiatrists believed his illness was psychological and was being maintained by an “over-protective mother”.  Everything possible was done to censor communication between the child and his parents, who did not even know if their son knew why they were not allowed to visit him.
In this “care”, the sick child was forcibly thrown into a hospital swimming pool with no floating aids because psychiatrists wanted to prove that he could use his limbs and that he would be forced to do so to save himself from drowning.  He could not save himself and sank to the bottom of the pool.  The terrified child was also dragged out of the hospital ward and taken on a ghost train because psychiatrists were determined to prove that he could speak and they believed he would cry out in fear and panic and this would prove them right.  Another part of this “care” included keeping the boy alone in a side-ward and leaving him intentionally unattended for over seven hours at a time with no means of communication because the call bell had been deliberately disconnected.
The side-ward was next to the lavatories and the staff believed he would take himself to the lavatory when he was desperate enough.  He was unable to do so and wet himself but was left for many hours at a time sitting in urine-soaked clothes in a wet chair.  Another part of the “care” involved the child being raced in his wheelchair up and down corridors by a male nurse who would stop abruptly without warning, supposedly to make the boy hold on to the chair sides to prevent himself from being tipped out; he was unable to do so and was projected out of the wheelchair onto the floor, which on one occasion resulted in injury to his back.  This was regarded as a huge joke by the staff.
In a further medical report dated 5th August 1988 for Messrs Simcocks, Wessely expressed a diametric opinion from that of Dr Morgan-Hughes, writing: “ A label does not matter so long as the correct treatment is instituted.  It may assist the Court to point out that I am the co-author of several scientific papers concerning the topic of “ME”….I have considerable experience of both (it) and child and adult psychiatry (and) submit that mutism cannot occur (in ME). I disagree that active rehabilitation should wait until recovery has taken place, and submit that recovery will not occur until such rehabilitation has commenced……..it may help the Court to emphasise that…active management, which takes both a physical and psychological approach, is the most successful treatment available.  It is now in everyone’s interests that rehabilitation proceeds as quickly as possible.  I am sure that everyone, including Ean, is now anxious for a way out of this dilemma with dignity”.
Ean Proctor was kept in “care” and away from his parents for over five months.

Sophia Mirza;

Sophia died under very distressing circumstances on Nov 25th 2005. She showed all the classic signs of classic ME( hypersensitivity, muteness, severe pain, food allergys) but was sectioned in a mental health hospital against her will, under the mental health act, for two weeks in July 2003. This was due to the Drs blaming her Mother, Criona Wilson, for causing her condition. Her mother, quite rightly, blames her incarnation there for worsening her symptoms and subsequent death. Upon her death a autopsy was carried out. At first her cause of death could not be determined. Thanks to Simon Lawrence her spinal cord was taken away for research by Dr Chaudhuri and Dr O’Donovan which discovered unequivocal inflammatory changes affecting the special nerve cell collections (dorsal root ganglia) that are the gateways (or station) for all sensations going to the brain through the spinal cord. The changes of dorsal root ganglionitis seen in 75% of Sophia‘s spinal cord were very similar to that seen during active infection by herpes viruses (such as shingles). The cause of death was however determined as acute anuric renal failure. The other symptoms were classed as the secondry reason of death. However I think the inflammatory changes are a more significant contributing factor in her death, as I explained in a Nov post, that is the meaning of 'Myalgic Encephalomyelitis'. The cause of her illness certainly had nothing to do with her mothers handling of her.

You can find out more at her website  http://www.sophiaandme.org.uk/

Libby Meyers;

Libby Meyers, 62, is in a nursing home in Charlton Down near Dorchester but her family want her to be treated at a specialist NHS centre, the Chronic Fatuige Syndrome unit at Queens hospital in Romford  in Essex. Her husband and daughter have appealed three times but their applications have been rejected by NHS Dorset.
Mrs Meyers' husband Hugh, from Stratton near Dorchester, said his wife had simply been "abandoned" with no NHS treatment since 2007. Her bed in the Chestnut Nursing Home is being paid for by the family. Their third appeal against NHS Dorset's decision not to fund treatment in Essex was turned down recently and they now have no further right to appeal. Her husband says "She's had assessments [by local NHS] and they've all said 'sorry, she's too severely ill and we've got nothing that can help her. It may be expensive to send her to Essex but the cost implications of a woman of 62, who could probably survive in horrendous conditions for another 20 years, it doesn't make sense."
Their daughter Fiona Meyers says "They've left mum to rot in a nursing home.






   

  

Tuesday 4 January 2011

Suspension

Hi all, happy new year :). Below are photos of the Foggy friends atc (artist trading card) swap specimens I received before Christmas



The above six are my favourite. Stupidly I forgot to take any photos of my own atc. My Grandma got me a load of card making stuff for my birthday, which is why I entered it, to use some of my stuff up.  

A model areoplane my brother got for Christmas



I received a letter in the post the other day saying Dr Wight has mysteriously suspended his clinic for the forseeable future. Nobody has a clue why. Lots of people on Foggy friends are grumbling about it, many people rely on him a great deal. Hopefully the reason isn't too serious though so he'll be able to start practising again soon.

In the meantime we will just have to continue with the treatments alone. Its a shame from the tests point of view as I'll be unable to have those now. I probably won't even be able to find a Dr to retest my Mitochondria function to see if the Infra-red has improved it

However there are ME sufferers who take Naltrexone without a Drs supervision so at least I shall probably be able to carry on accessing it.

He has recommended Zolperdem Tartrate for my sleep problems which started again in early Nov and leave me feel really rubbish (shattered, sore eyes, painful fuzzy head). It is addictive though so I can only take it occasionally. My sleep has improved the last couple of weeks though. On Sunday night I tried cutting down to 3 Melatonin tablets rather than four but slept badly again, felt very yucky, so have gone back to the original doseage. Its a pity that sleeping pills are the only thing that makes a significant difference to my sleep. I've tried cutting down on rests in case I'm underdoing it, getting fresh air and practising yoga every day but nothing like that works.

I managed to have a lovely Christmas and New year despite everything. On New years day we went out to lunch at Ickwork house, which as you can guess from the pic was delightful;