Showing posts with label Medical reflections. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Medical reflections. Show all posts

Monday, 2 January 2012

Christmas gifts from Father pony

My little tree
I know it probably seems a little weird to some, somebody who can't ride asking for jodphurs for Christmas. But I figured that people who don't ski wear skiing jackets + people who don't dance wear ballet pumps so why shouldn't people who don't ride wear jodphurs

The ones I'm wearing are from the Townend range I've been a pony nut since I was about 11, subscribing to magazines, playing games, watching it on tv, going on forums. But I haven't had any chance to actually ride sadly. Its difficult when half the time your so weak + dizzy its a struggle to sit, propped up, in bed never mind on a horse


My dream pony would be a bay caspian. Caspians are small horses, suited to small adults with very graceful paces from the Caspian mountains

Saturday, 5 March 2011

If there is one thing I'd like to change about the world...

it'd be to give science back its integrity. Science should be about precise facts, not something you can twist and warp to fit yourself as the government so often seems to do with its own funded research.

It is the same with both enviromental and medical government funded research. Government twists the data untill it fits their attitudes and budget

A quote from 'British wildlife';

" 'New chemical element discovered'

Defra scientists are proud to announce the discovery of a super-heavy element called Governmentium (Gm). Though inflated and obese, the thing is held together by vast numbers of sticky particles known as morons. Governmentiums mass increases over time, during which it reorganises itself regularly to form isodopes. Eventually it reaches what is known as a 'critical morass', but fortunately nothing happens. Governmentium is completely inert

Wednesday, 2 February 2011

Blue Ribbon Campaign for ME/CFS;We need to think of public concern first and our concerns second to with a Public Relations Fight

I read this on the Blue Ribbon campaign blog and found it of interest;

'We need Public Relations. That is going to be true today, tomorrow, and the day after the NIH study is published. Yes, it will get covered by the media. But then the study will fade away and the media will stop covering it. They will stop covering it because patients don't make any news for them to cover. The NIH study does not mean the messages we want to convey to the public will get there.

Public Relations for our disease is needed. It will be needed after the NIH study is published and after all subsequent  rumored positive papers are published. However, just because we have a message to give to the public does not mean they want to hear it.

If we want the public to hear us then we need to tell the public what matters to them, not what matters to us. This is what will make the public care what matters to us. 

 What matters to the public is what is newsworthy, and what affects their family, friends and neighbors. How can we ever hope to win the public to our side if we are only interested in talking about ourselves?

We can hook the public with several newsworthy facts that are about them. That is how we make the public care. Journalists care about newsworthy facts. Politicians care about what effects their polls, and their support from the public. The public cares about what influences their life, and the lives of their family and friends.


Here are some of those issues the public is going to care about:


1. CFS and its link to XMRV

2. How many healthy people may be walking around carrying XMRV (4% of the population, possibly 7% of the population if we go by the Alter slide)
3. Three countries have taken the precautionary measure of banning people with CFS from donating blood, but the U.S. has not. While a lot about XMRV is unknown, just as a precaution, the blood supply needs to be protected.

Now these things don't say anything about patient care,  problems with the CDC website,  problems with our name and diagnostic criteria.  Those are our concerns, and they are valid concerns.. But they cannot be addressed all at once, and nor will a public listen to it if they don't understand in the first place why it matters to them too.


In addressing the public, we must think first and foremost about their concern, rather than our own. We need to make ME/CFS matter to every part of society.  We can't do that while we're telling the public only what concerns us.


To illustrate my point, I would like you to think of this scenario. You turn on the tv, and there is an ad about purple disease. You've never heard of purple disease before. The commercial tells you there has been a fight about the name of purple disease, some want to call it blue, others yellow. Patients with purple disease want lots of things. They want recognition. They want help. They want money for research. They want drugs to fight purple disease.


How fast would you switch the channel? How does the fight about purple disease affect you? Do you care about purple disease research based on this ad? What does purple disease have to do with you and your family?  Why would you give a dollar or lift your finger during your busy life for something that does not touch your life in any way at all?


Now imagine a different scenario. You turn on the tv, and there is an ad for purple disease. You've never heard of purple disease before.  The commercial disease tells you what purple disease is, and that it's been highly associated with an infectious disease. You hear other countries are taking action to make sure that the public is not exposed to this disease through the blood supply.  You are told how many people may be carrying this infectious disease. You are told about outbreaks and stories about blood transfusions where people developed purple disease shortly after.  At the end of the commercial you are asked to go to a website to donate and learn more about purple disease.


Do you care about purple disease now? Do you see and feel how purple disease could affect your family without ever actually using the literal words? Without being told all the issues that concern patients, does it now concern you? And now that you're concerned that purple disease is a serious thing what are you going to do?  Hopefully, you are saying "yes, yes." and nodding as you read this. 


Yes, we need the public to care about us. We need the public to be on our side. We need the public to run for us, walk for us, donate to research, write letters to the government on our behalf. We need politicians to move mountains.


Please ask yourself, why would the public care about our concerns if we are not putting the concerns of the public first?


We only have seconds to reach the public, before they turn the page, before they turn the channel. We live in the age of the soundbyte. Where words and entire sentences are reduced to letters.  How fast do you stop looking at things that have nothing to do with you? How quick do you tune out from messages that are not thinking about your needs, or your life?


To get the public to care about us, we have to talk about their concerns as it relates to us first.


Those concerns are XMRV and the blood supply.'


 Andrea Martell
Blue Ribbon Campaign for M.E./CFS

 

Though I don't agree that the only concerns are XMRV and the blood supply, I do think we need public relations and need to think deeply about how we go about it. I think we need to raise awareness of its affect on society such as how much it costs the economy because of all the people unable to work, also how serious it can be such as it leading to organ failure, acute pain and the number of adult ME sufferers who are dependant on child carers.

I think because we are very keen to lose the image of 'lazy yuppies' we tend to concentrate a little too much on our acheivements in the media such as how we passed exams, raised money via skydiving or whatever and set up charities as a result of our experiences. Also we only seem to concentrate on the fatuige part of our disease because its meant to be the one symptom we all have in common without mentioning the pain, dizziness or loss of muscle function

Faced with all the problems and worthy causes in need of support in the world, I do wonder, if I had not suffered and knew this disease inside out wether ME research would be top of my causes to support?Probably not... Causes such as habitat destruction, climate change which endangers us all or AIDS in Africa which kills half the population. Still people do raise money for illnesses like MS and Anerexia which aren't so common...
What do others think?

Saturday, 8 January 2011

A breif history of ME with case studies- (updated)

You may be wondering who and what I was referring to in my Dec post 'A series of unfortunate events; why I've been slightly depressed recently' when I mentioned the people who died of lack of care and abuse.

In order to help you understand I thought I'd first give you a basic history of ME;

ME is probably the most controversial and deliberately misunderstood illness in medical history. Myalgic Encephalomyelitis (ME) has been documented in the medical literature from 1934. It has been classified, by the World Health Organisation in the International Classification of diseases, as a organic, neurological condition since 1969. It shows very obvious, physical symptoms and signs of abnormal body functions under lab conditions

However it has been encouraged to be belittled and confused with Chronic Fatigue in the UK since 1988 (simply long term tiredness, probably psychiatric) by members of the Wesseley school. Simon Wesseley is obviously at the head of this school of thought. In case you haven't heard of him, he is Professor of Epidemiological and Liaison Psychiatry at Guy's, King's and St Thomas' School of Medicine, London and at The Institute of Psychiatry, where he is Director of both the CFS Research Unit and the Gulf War Illness Research Unit. He is well-known for his strongly-held beliefs that neither ME nor Gulf War Syndrome exists, and that such patients are mentally, not physically, ill. Seems a bit odd that he is heading  research into ilnesses he doesn't believe in. He is also an adviser to the government and medical insurance companies.

He believes that rather than a physical disease being at the heart of ME, the sufferers are merely self obsessed hyperchondriacs and any self respecting Dr would be disgusted with them. He encourages the government not to take ME as a serious disease on this basis.

This has led to a lot of stigma around the illness and very few services, treatments or biomedical research.

Here are a few case stories

Ean Procter;

In 1988, a formerly healthy 12 year old boy named Ean Proctor from the Isle of Man had been suffering from ME since the autumn of 1986; his symptoms included total exhaustion, feeling extremely ill, abdominal pain, persistent nausea, drenching sweats, headaches, recurrent sore throat, heightened sensitivity to noise and light and loss of balance; he was also dragging his right leg.  In 1987 his condition had rapidly deteriorated; he had gradually (not suddenly as may occur in hysterical disorders) lost his speech and was almost completely paralysed (which lasted for two years).  He had been seen by Dr Morgan-Hughes, a senior consultant neurologist at the National Hospital in London, who had reaffirmed the diagnosis of ME and advised the parents that ME patients usually respond poorly to exercise until their muscle strength begins to improve; he also advised that drugs could make the situation worse.
Although he did not obtain his MRCPsych until 1986, during one visit by the Proctors to the National Hospital in 1988, Wessely (then a Senior Registrar in Psychiatry) entered the room and asked Ean’s parents if he could become involved in his case; desperate for any help, they readily agreed.  Wessely soon informed them that children do not get ME, and unknown to them, on 3 June 1988 he wrote to the Principal Social Worker at Douglas, Isle of Man (Mrs Jean Manson) that “Ean presented with a history of an ability (sic) to use any muscle group which amounted to a paraplegia, together with elective mutatism (sic).  I did not perform a physical examination but was told that there was no evidence of any physical pathology…I was in no doubt that the primary problem was psychiatric (and) that his apparent illness was out of all proportion to the original cause.  I feel that Ean’s parents are very over involved in his care.  I have considerable experience in the subject of ‘myalgic encephalomyelitis’ and am absolutely certain that it did not apply to Ean.  I feel that Ean needs a long period of rehabilitation (which) will involve separation from his parents, providing an escape from his “ill” world.  For this reason, I support the application made by your department for wardship”.
On 10 June 1988 Wessely provided another report on Ean Proctor for Messrs Simcocks & Co, Solicitors for the Child Care Department on the Isle of Man. Although Wessely had never once interviewed or examined the child, he wrote “I did not order any investigations….Ean cannot be suffering from any primary organic illness, be it myalgic encephalomyelitis or any other. Ean has a primary psychological illness causing him to become mute and immobile.  Ean requires skilled rehabilitation to regain lost function.  I therefore support the efforts being made to ensure Ean receives appropriate treatment”.  Under his signature, Wessely wrote “Approved under Section 12, Mental Health Act 1983”.
In that same month (June 1988), without ever having spoken to his parents, social workers supported by psychiatrists and armed with a Court Order specially signed by a magistrate on a Sunday, removed the child under police presence from his distraught and disbelieving parents and placed him into “care” because psychiatrists believed his illness was psychological and was being maintained by an “over-protective mother”.  Everything possible was done to censor communication between the child and his parents, who did not even know if their son knew why they were not allowed to visit him.
In this “care”, the sick child was forcibly thrown into a hospital swimming pool with no floating aids because psychiatrists wanted to prove that he could use his limbs and that he would be forced to do so to save himself from drowning.  He could not save himself and sank to the bottom of the pool.  The terrified child was also dragged out of the hospital ward and taken on a ghost train because psychiatrists were determined to prove that he could speak and they believed he would cry out in fear and panic and this would prove them right.  Another part of this “care” included keeping the boy alone in a side-ward and leaving him intentionally unattended for over seven hours at a time with no means of communication because the call bell had been deliberately disconnected.
The side-ward was next to the lavatories and the staff believed he would take himself to the lavatory when he was desperate enough.  He was unable to do so and wet himself but was left for many hours at a time sitting in urine-soaked clothes in a wet chair.  Another part of the “care” involved the child being raced in his wheelchair up and down corridors by a male nurse who would stop abruptly without warning, supposedly to make the boy hold on to the chair sides to prevent himself from being tipped out; he was unable to do so and was projected out of the wheelchair onto the floor, which on one occasion resulted in injury to his back.  This was regarded as a huge joke by the staff.
In a further medical report dated 5th August 1988 for Messrs Simcocks, Wessely expressed a diametric opinion from that of Dr Morgan-Hughes, writing: “ A label does not matter so long as the correct treatment is instituted.  It may assist the Court to point out that I am the co-author of several scientific papers concerning the topic of “ME”….I have considerable experience of both (it) and child and adult psychiatry (and) submit that mutism cannot occur (in ME). I disagree that active rehabilitation should wait until recovery has taken place, and submit that recovery will not occur until such rehabilitation has commenced……..it may help the Court to emphasise that…active management, which takes both a physical and psychological approach, is the most successful treatment available.  It is now in everyone’s interests that rehabilitation proceeds as quickly as possible.  I am sure that everyone, including Ean, is now anxious for a way out of this dilemma with dignity”.
Ean Proctor was kept in “care” and away from his parents for over five months.

Sophia Mirza;

Sophia died under very distressing circumstances on Nov 25th 2005. She showed all the classic signs of classic ME( hypersensitivity, muteness, severe pain, food allergys) but was sectioned in a mental health hospital against her will, under the mental health act, for two weeks in July 2003. This was due to the Drs blaming her Mother, Criona Wilson, for causing her condition. Her mother, quite rightly, blames her incarnation there for worsening her symptoms and subsequent death. Upon her death a autopsy was carried out. At first her cause of death could not be determined. Thanks to Simon Lawrence her spinal cord was taken away for research by Dr Chaudhuri and Dr O’Donovan which discovered unequivocal inflammatory changes affecting the special nerve cell collections (dorsal root ganglia) that are the gateways (or station) for all sensations going to the brain through the spinal cord. The changes of dorsal root ganglionitis seen in 75% of Sophia‘s spinal cord were very similar to that seen during active infection by herpes viruses (such as shingles). The cause of death was however determined as acute anuric renal failure. The other symptoms were classed as the secondry reason of death. However I think the inflammatory changes are a more significant contributing factor in her death, as I explained in a Nov post, that is the meaning of 'Myalgic Encephalomyelitis'. The cause of her illness certainly had nothing to do with her mothers handling of her.

You can find out more at her website  http://www.sophiaandme.org.uk/

Libby Meyers;

Libby Meyers, 62, is in a nursing home in Charlton Down near Dorchester but her family want her to be treated at a specialist NHS centre, the Chronic Fatuige Syndrome unit at Queens hospital in Romford  in Essex. Her husband and daughter have appealed three times but their applications have been rejected by NHS Dorset.
Mrs Meyers' husband Hugh, from Stratton near Dorchester, said his wife had simply been "abandoned" with no NHS treatment since 2007. Her bed in the Chestnut Nursing Home is being paid for by the family. Their third appeal against NHS Dorset's decision not to fund treatment in Essex was turned down recently and they now have no further right to appeal. Her husband says "She's had assessments [by local NHS] and they've all said 'sorry, she's too severely ill and we've got nothing that can help her. It may be expensive to send her to Essex but the cost implications of a woman of 62, who could probably survive in horrendous conditions for another 20 years, it doesn't make sense."
Their daughter Fiona Meyers says "They've left mum to rot in a nursing home.






   

  

Saturday, 18 December 2010

A series of unfortunate events; why I've been slightly depressed recently

I'm very sorry if I've upset anyone with my recent facebook updates. Ever since Fred died I seem to have gone to pieces rather. Partly because he was my emotional crutch which suddenly got whisked from under me and partly because his death was the last in a row of stressful events.

My stress has been due to a number of things. Partly Dr Wights tests and all this recent research breakthroughs such as XMRV and the viral research on children, has been digging up uncomfortable feelings for me. I mean I'm delighted they are making some small progress finally but it feels like the moment of truth and I feel uncomfortable about being one of the people they're testing on in case my tests come up negative. What if I'm really some weird hypochondriac like all my local Drs claimed? Its daft because I regard being mentally ill as just as valid as being physically ill if you know what I mean. Its just that I didn't appear to be either physically or mentally ill but I ob wasn't normal either! I was so worried about this I didn't read the results properly when they first came through and got into a real state, convincing myself they'd found nothing wrong with them! I was just about to tell Dr Wight and his pesky tests to get lost when he told me they'd found a fault with my Mitochondria and suggested a treatment. That was the turning point when I decided to give him a chance and set up this blog to record my journey

I've felt guilty for a long time for being unable to find many positives in my ME and having acheived so little during the worst part.  The ME mags are full of stories of the positives people have found of having ME and and even on the forums I visit their full of 'severely affected' people who manage much more than I did during my worst (and even my slightly better). I mean I've done things since I started to recover fully but somehow it doesn't seem to count as I didn't regard myself as 'severely' ill when I did them.

Then there is the worst of my concerns, the one that actually makes me cry, which is I spent a long time when I was a child being scared of the Drs I was under taking me away from my parents and abusing me untill eventually I died because they'd made my health so bad. The terrible part is when I recovered and started to research ME I discovered that had actually happened, people had been torn away from their families, thrown in physiatric wards against their will, and died of lack of care and abuse. What makes me stricken now is how little is being done to stop it and how reluctant my fellow sufferers are to talk about it. If we can't even face up to it, how can we change it? The stories I read liberated me to understand my own but now I'm also chained by their ghosts. I can't just ignore them, I understand too about what they went through.

I was so hoping Dr Wights treatments would cure me so I had more strengh to change things. So far nothing miraculous has happened though which is my last cause of discontent   

Thursday, 16 December 2010

'When I grow up'

I've spent so long dreaming of living a healthy life that it seems weird to think I might ever have one now! Rather like someone whose lived on the street all their life dreaming of a warm home and a family. I've gone from saying 'When I'm better' to 'When I grow up' as the time I've been ill lenthened and I realised I'd be unlikly to recover before I became a grown up. I still use that phrase even though I am a grown up officially now, though I guess I am still a sort of teenager?

Some dreams for my future;

  1. Volunteer for Suffolk Wildlife Trust or/and The Amateur Entomology society
  2. Go to university to study some kind of Life science
  3. Graduate and work as a freelance ecologist/zoologist/environmental campaigner
  4. travel in Canada, South America and New Zealand (Ben, my brother and Hannah, his girlfriend are going to South America next year, lucky things!)
  5. Swim, sail, dive, bike and Mambo dance
  6. Live independently with 3 rats, a chinchilla called Pikachu (because chinchillas always remind me of him!, and guinea pigs naturally. Maybe even some chickens  
My Mum had another phone consultation yesterday with Dr Wight. He has recommended we increase the Naltrexone, have 2ml in the morning as well as 4.5 in the evening. He is pretty convinced I have XMRV and that the Naltrexone will help that so fingers crossed!


Saturday, 11 December 2010

'The real sleeping beauty'

I was watching a programme yesterday about a 16 year old girl who suffers from Kleine Levin syndrome. Kleine Levin syndrome is a rare sleep condition that affects one in a million people and possibly not surprisingly has no known cure. Throughout the programme there was a lot of emphasis on this lack of cure which set me thinking about my own condition which affects up to 150,000 in the UK alone but likewise has no known cure or diagnosis test (or so the health departments involved with government claim). Although I doubt that all of those people have the classic ME type, its still its a amazing number!

Especially when you think that, although I'm sure its very frustrating for Louisa (the girl) to live with, the episodes only last a couple of weeks and in between she is able to party, socialise, dance and attend schooll. Whilst I by contrast was not able to perform such basic bodily functions as eating, sleeping and talking ( sometimes even breathing) for the first seven years of my illness.

Whats really frustrating is, although I know my fellow sufferers claim that the reason the health athorities trivialise ME in order to save money on research and services, it would actually save them as much as £6.4, billion money in the long term with all the people who'd be able to return to work

Anyways if you wish to watch the programme 'The real sleeping beuaty' go to  http://www.bbc.co.uk/iplayer/search?q=The%20Real%20Sleeping%20Beauty

Sleeping beauty Louisa Ball suffers from Kleine-Levin Syndrome, a rare condition where people sleep for weeks at a time

You will also see if you go to the Videos and Slideshows page new videos on XMRV

The programme did also set me thinking how much ME could really do with a good looking, cute, bubbly ambassador. So long as they were passionate about ME and its impact too. Ah well, Chlay'll just have to hurry up and get famous

Hope your all AWAP :)